Hey my lovely souls, (that’s how the beautiful and the cool entertainer and the blogger talks to her readers)
I just read Layan’s freshly released post (http://layanbubbly.com/2013/02/05/focus-and-relax/). This girl has a great power to motivate people, bring out their power to keep them alive and powerful. She has mentioned in this post about haters, bullying, anxiety and anger.
“A couple of hours ago, if you met with me, you would have seen me crying my eyes out. I found myself in this raging mentality where punching a wall seemed logical. I was screaming at my loved boyfriend hoping to be understood.” Layan says.
When it comes to myself, a couple of days ago, a couple of hours ago, even now, I was crying deep inside, feeling throbbing, terrible, disappointed, so much more. At the same time I feel lucky and blessed to have a great mental power, have good friends around me, have a passionate career, etc.….
In her case Layan had her loving boyfriend to scream at and get his attention and be loved by him. In my case, for good or bad I just lost my loved boyfriend whom I was screaming at all the time whenever I’m depressed or anxious or sad 😦 however after reading her post I got an inspiration to write something special that also can diminish my pain and become serene. And I hope I would be able to get people’s eye on my post and spread something effectual just like Layan 🙂
After 2 days…
I kept aside this for a while, because I was awaiting for Layan’s reply to my message asking for her permission to write this, since I’ve stated her name few times here. And she said it’s totally okay. She’s such a sweetheart.
Getting to the track, I’m writing once again after two days and I’m almost recovered. Look how strange can be a person’s mind. Our emotions are changing constantly. Once we are happy, and in the very next moment you can start crying all over or being moody for whatever the reason. Here’s a good quote for that.
“If you surrender completely to the moment as they pass, you live more richly those moments.” ~ Anne Morrow Lindbergh
We should accept whatever the feeling we get and try to deal with it. Yes I’m not someone who could do that. But I’m so trying…
Weeks before, I have been working according to a very busy schedule and I never ever used to do so. It was kind of challenging for me, as well as overwhelmed, stress, strain, tension, worry, nerves…. Changes of the place made me freaking out. I never thought starting a new job is this much stressful.
The other co-incidents while feeling excessive stress, loosing someone who was really really close to me, separating from a person I love a lot and so much more… I was disinclined to turn over and accept that I was predestined to feel bad because of life events.
And I can’t believe that I got mad at someone for a long period. Because I barely feel angry towards another. Even though I’m angry I won’t ignore that person. But this time some provoke me to do so and I could do that. I really don’t know how far is that right. I always believed that a weak cannot forgive and if someone is able to forgive, it’s the attribute of the strong. If you got hurt by people, it doesn’t mean that they intended to hurt you or they are bad. It happens… you only have to be aware of the gray zone where people are HUMAN!
It’s easy to see others faults and get angry with them, but facing your own is the hardest. I found myself acting thoughtless and uncontrolled that time. So yeah, people make mistakes, but scrutinizing them or scrutinizing your own mistakes is not the thing to do. Because making mistakes and learning from those mistakes is simply part of growing up.
I used to be too paranoid, but I don’t have to be so… not anymore… reading into things so much, analyzing them or dwelling in the past makes you continually fearing, genuine regret might arise, you will feel bad about yourself. So smile, breathe, and go slowly.
I’m working on my next post at the moment. Will get back to you soon :*
Take Care…. Love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!